Saturday, August 8, 2009

Digging Deeper

I have really felt empty lately, and I have figured out why (as if it is a shocker). I have drifted so far away from God lately. With Brandon's work schedule, we aren't able to go to church together on Sunday mornings so I have been laying out. For like 3 months. On top of that, when we DO get to go, we have ONE option for a Sunday School class. We tried that one for quite a while, and, even though everyone in there knows us because we keep their kids in the preschool, after we stopped going, not ONCE did anyone say they had missed us...not a word. Who wants to go to a class where they don't even notice you're there because there are like 30 people there? I really wish TR would do small groups throughout the week as opposed to Sunday School. I am torn. We came back to TR because we love it, it's home. It's comfortable. But it seems dead now. No one wants to put forth the effort to make changes. They don't listen to the members' thoughts. They won't try anything new or different. Numbers continue to fall. There's pretty much nothing there for us. So, we're back to struggling with the idea of visiting other churches again. Sigh.

Anyway, I have been listening to Kari Jobe lately (if you've never heard her, you should check her out.) She for some reason has really had an impact on me. Listening to her and watching her makes me want to dig deeper. She's the type that when you watch her, you go "I want what she has." I have never been good at studying the Word. I HATE reading, and honestly it feels pointless because most of the time I don't understand what I'm reading. I stink at the history and geography, much less the people! I am desperate for a bible study group where I can really dig in to the Word, but it seems I have no options. I don't know where to start. But, for tonight, I will start with some serious talking with God and asking for forgiveness for putting him on the back burner.

1 comment:

Katie said...

So sorry to hear about your frustrations with TRBC. (I didn't know that you guys had gone back there!) I wonder who you could make a suggestion to about small groups...?