Friday, June 26, 2009

Brown Baggin it

Seeing, as we are about to be homeowners for the first time, we are having to cut a lot of corners (that should have been cut a long time ago!). One of those corners is lunch. I'm really good at hitting the drive through for whatever reason....I didn't get up in time to make lunch...we didn't have enough leftovers....or I simply didn't want another sandwich! So, I'm trying different things that are easy and don't require much preparation, but that are also yummy, healthy, and not a turkey sandwich!

Today I had a Morningstar veggie burger. Sounds gross, but it was actually really good! One box has 4 burgers, which is all but one day for the week. I put mine on wheat bread instead of a bun, and put a slice of cheese on it. It reminded me of a Krystal. Paired with some baked Sun Chips and a bottle of Special K Protein Water, it was quite satisfying. No turkey involved!

My husband Rocks!

So....yeah. I need to get started on this again!

Brandon has issues with feeling like a failure constantly, so I figured I would take the time to brag on his most recent success! In the eyes of society, we are successful we reach certain milestones....when we graduate college....get a good paying suit-and-tie job....when we are able to drive expensive cars....the list goes on and on. To me, we are successful when we set a goal and reach matter how big or small. My husband has never been a big goal-setter or go-getter...and it is frustrating! Well, after being married for 2 years and my husband being in the same position, making pretty much BARELY enough for us to get by, he finally began to try for a promotion. Every time there has been an opening at another store, he has interviewed. The first few didn't go too well because he wasn't very experienced with interviews or "professionalism." After that, he got better and better at it. It took over a year of interviews, but he stuck with it, and a month or so ago, he got a promotion! Yes, he works at Kroger, which according to society's standards is lousy, but in my eyes, he is now the Assistant Manager, and he worked hard for it! I am so proud of him for working so hard and sticking with it...he's good at giving up because all he ever heard growing up was "you can't do it." Well baby, I told you could do it and you did! I am so proud of you! Thank you for stepping up to do what it takes to take care of us :-)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Drawing Near

Whoa. My heart is heavy. So heavy. Lately, I have really felt as though I have been neglecting God. Because of Brandon's work schedule, we haven't been to church much lately, and I am not getting "fed." Neither Brandon nor myself make the time to read the word, or even pray like we should. It's basically like our relationship with God has become non-existant. Yet, still, even when we have completely abandoned Him, He has still continued to bless us SO SO richly! He has not only blessed us with the ability to buy a house, but he has also blessed Brandon with a MUCH needed promotion, and He gave us not just any ole house, but a VERY nice house priced $40,000 below it's worth, plus an $8,000 tax refund for buying, AND He has made the process fairly easy for the most part. It's ridiculous how much we have been blessed, all while we ignored Him. Why? Why would he do that? Is it simply because He loves us? Or is there more to it? Is He trying to get our attention? Well, God, you've got it! I just feel like...well...such a bad Christian! I feel Him drawing me to Him, and I am so thankful. Even though it is painful to realize that you have become one of those who just scoff at Him, I am thankful for the rude awakening. He has also been opening my husband's eyes, and that has been an amazing thing to see.

Do you know anyone on this Earth, including yourself, who would give so much to someone who had completely abandoned them? I sure wouldn't do that! For example, my heart has been hurting lately because of a certain friend. She and I were BEST friends...practically inseperable for years...until I got married. Then she got married. Now, our relationship is pretty much non-existant. And that hurts me. I have tried and tried and tried to get her to make time for have lunch or coffee, or just to call and say hello! But, to no avail. If I don't call her or write her, she doesn't put forth any effort. She acts as though she could care less whether we are friends anymore or not, and that hurts. There's no other way to put it. I miss her. I miss our friendship. And I think it's ridiculous that just because we are married, we can't have that friendship anymore. But I think that gives me just a teeny tiny taste of how God feels when he tries to spend time with us, and we blow him off. I get so angry with this friend. I get very upset. To the point where I've decided to let her go, which I do believe is the right thing to do, but it still hurts. But, who am I to get so angry with her when I do the same exact thing to my Savior??

I've also noticed my increasingly bad attitude at work. My job gets to me sometimes. I am surrounded by women twice my age, and all they know how to do is talk about everyone else and start drama. There are a few people in particular that NO ONE likes. They are devious, manipulative, lying, hateful, and rude. And I have developed a bad attitude with them (if you know me at all, you will know that I am VERY mild tempered, soft spoken, quiet, and I am very good at holding my tongue...but I can only hold it so long). I posted the video to this song in a previous blog, and ever since I heard this song, it has spoken volumes to me. Who am I? Where do I get the idea that I am such a good Christian that I can treat people like that, even when they deserve it? Don't get me wrong, sometimes things need to be said, but there is a right way and a wrong way to do it. I've been going about it all wrong. Not only have I been saying hateful things about them, but I haven't been saying it to their faces (well, sometimes I do)! I have caught myself running back to my coworkers' cube talking about them! I am the office gossip! I HATE gossip! I think I have just held my tongue for so long, that now I just feel the need to vent, and of course I go to my coworker to vent. There's nothing wrong with venting, but I shouldn't be doing it at work. That's what Brandon's for! :P

So, through all of this, I have been forced to ask myself, "What do I know of Holy?"

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
(CHORUS)What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees
(CHORUS)What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
(CHORUS 2)What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?(CHORUS)
What do I know of YouWho spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?What do I know of Holy?

Friday, June 12, 2009

Sweet Niblets

Yeah, I just quoted Hannah Montana. Don't judge. :)

I am exhausted. And by exhausted, I mean, worn out, sore, cranky and irritable, mean, sick to my stomach, have no energy left exhausted. And we haven't even moved yet. It's been a month straight of non-stop errands, pricing things, picking paint, meeting with the realtor, preparing the loan, etc etc etc. UGH! I'm beat! And I can't turn my brain off! When I do sit and try to relax, my mind just keeps going a hundred miles an hour, reminding me of all the things I have to do! I can barely even eat I'm so tired...I feel sick when I eat anything.

I think it's time for a vaca.

What do I know?

If you haven't noticed, one of my favorite blogs to read is Katie's. She is not only crafty, an excellent cook, a great list maker, and funny, but she is probably one of the most humble yet faithful Christians I know. If I had gone through some of the things she has gone through, I find it hard to believe I would be nearly as faithful. I really wish she didn't live so far away
:( Anyway, I stole this from her too. She posted it, and it brought tears to my eyes. Not to mention, I LOVE Addison Road. So take a sec to watch, and pay attention to the lyrics.

Monday, June 8, 2009


My wonderful friend Katie told me how to make this neat and adorable signature for my blog! Thanks, Katie!

Back to square one

Well, yet again, I have fallen off track...completely. With all the house business, I have been incredibly busy and tired...too much so to stop and think about points, much less cook a reasonable dinner. So my belly has seen a lot (and I mean A LOT) of fast food over the few weeks, but my legs haven't seen the gym at all. And I can definitely feel it. I feel awful! I didn't realize how being active for just 2-3 weeks can change you, but I can tell a difference. I have been exhausted! I blame it on the craziness of home buying, but I know it is also because I used that as an excuse not to exercise. So, we're starting again. I'm pretty down on myself because this is how it ALWAYS seems to go. Every time. Every. Single. Time. It doesn't seem to matter how motivated or determined I am. All it takes is one moment...a short moment...of being careless, or saying I'm too tired today...and I'm done. I've blown it. Why is that? Anyone else struggle with that?

Monday, June 1, 2009


Ok, so it's been a while. Forgive me! Things have been nuts! Here's the quick version:

-We got a house!!! Yep, that's right! We are going to be homeowners!! We are ecstatic!! We have the inspection this Thursday, and I will take some pictures and post them. We close on July 16th, and we can't wait!! (Anyone up for helping paint and/or move?? lol)

-We also got a new little addition to our family. Her name is Katie! She is 2 months old, and we just love her to death! We were worried about how Codi would like her, and at first, he sure didn't! But now they are best buddies! They play and play all day long, and Codi even bathes her! We did find it quite humorous when Katie tried nursing on Codi, though. He has taken on a "motherly" role with her, so I guess she got confused!!
So, between caring for our new "baby" and the whirlwind of activities concerning the house, we have been going non stop! Whew! I will be glad to relax! Hopefully I will find some time to do that before the move!