Round and Round

Sometimes I feel like I'm on a Merry-Go-Round, doing nothing but going in circles, always seeing the same places over and over again, but never really making any progress. I REALLY feel that way when it comes to my weight. I've struggled with weight since I was a kid, and at some point I just kind of gave up. Ok, not kind of. I did. I lost all hope that I COULD lose weight, and absolutely lost every shred of confidence that I could keep it off even if I did lose it.

I started counting calories again last week. It's ok to roll your eyes at me. I do the same thing. I did really, really well last week and was very proud of myself. I messed up a couple of times when we went out. Thursday we went to Logan's and I got a grilled chicken salad (which has more calories than a steak, baked potato, and side salad combined), and I admit, I may have eaten too many rolls. Friday night I went out with a girlfriend to Cheddar's. Not pretty. And last night...well, let's not talk about last night. However, in the big scheme of things 3 meals out of an entire week is a LOT better than the weeks before that. I had maybe 2 diet cokes and 1 glass of sweet tea ALL WEEK. So instead of beating myself up for the boo-boo's, I'll just smile at the wins :)

There are 2 people who have really inspired me lately to lose weight. One of them is this guy:

If you don't know him, that's Shaycarl, and his family. On Youtube they are the Shaytards and I LOVE them! I can't even tell you how much I love them! Anyway, Shay recently lost over 100 pounds and he has documented it all on their family's daily vlogs, and it has been so neat to watch! He is proof that even if you mess up, if you pick it back up and keep going, you will get there. If you haven't seen them, check out their videos. Again I say, I LOVE them!

The other is a dear, precious friend of mine who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. This woman took very good care of herself, yet she couldn't escape it. And now she is fighting to survive this awful disease. So, this Fall I want to start a team to walk in the Susan G Komen Race for the Cure in her honor. I would love to be able to run it, even though that's not really my focus. I've just simply realized that she is fighting for her health and would give ANYTHING to have it, but I am being irresponsible by taking for granted the body that I have. So, it's time to change that! When I do that 5K this fall, I want to be a different person!