Tuesday, February 16, 2010

A little distraught

This is one of those days. I am feeling very...anxious. Distraught. Hopeless. It seems like we will never have the finances to go through with this adoption. We have to come up with 2K just to turn in the paperwork. They make it sound like it's sooo affordable to adopt. Yeah right. Not when you have to have a completed homestudy to apply for grants, and the home study itself costs $5600, but the loans available have a 10% interest rate, which means it would be another car payment until we got our adoption tax credit, which we don't get until the year the adoption is finalized. Yeah. It's not as easy as they make it sound. And I'm feeling like we'll never come up with that 2K, much less the total 12K. It's ridiculous. A home study should NOT cost $5600. Period. Anyway, I'm done ranting for the moment. Someone remind me that God is in control, and will provide....please?


Kelly Jo said...

In control and always waiting for you to trust him to provide. He has a time table that is all his own, even when you don't understand. *hugs* hang in there!

Jennifer Guenther said...

I can only imagine where you are coming from. I wish I had that magic wand we have longed for... But Have no fear cause HE is always here! You are doing a great job putting yourself out there for fundraising and your personal greeting cards. And I read somewhere where you are already talking about a yard sale. Granted I know you wished you had the money now and Lord knows if I had it, I'd give it to you in a heart beat. Anyway I guess what I'm saying is you are doing an awesome job with what you are given. And if there is anything I can do to help or spread the word... please let me know! I love ya girl! Hang in there you are a strong woman!