Do you ever get to the point in life where you just think, "Man, I really need a break"? I find that sometimes, we get so caught up in the day-to-day that we forget to stop and take time to breathe, and spend time with God, and just relax mentally. I do get time to "rest" most days, in the evenings, when I plop down to watch TV. But I never seem to want to take the time to turn off the tv, the computer, and the phones, and take a mental break...long bath, quiet time sitting outside enjoying the beauty of Spring that God has given us, or just enjoying some true peace and quiet.
I've always enjoyed having my alone time, mainly because all my life, there has ALWAYS been SOMEONE home with me. Growing up, I never....literally never...got time at home alone. And that hasn't changed a lot since I got married. I love my husband more than anything, and I miss him terribly when we're apart, but I believe everyone needs a break now and then for sanity's sake!
So, I am taking a break. From what, you ask?
1) From trying to get pregnant. I am emotionally drained from the month after month disappointment. So, I am going to continue taking the medicine, BUT I will not be counting days or testing every few weeks. No scheduling sex every so many hours. I want to enjoy that time with my husband, and it is getting to that point where it becomes more like "we HAVE to have sex today." So, I'm going to enjoy my husband, take the medicine, and learn to leave the rest in God's hands. I know my God is capable of giving us a child. And, I know that He will...when it's time. I am learning to wait on God, and that is a very hard lesson to learn. So, I will wait, and in the meantime, I will live and love my life, and draw closer to Him.
2) Work. Next weekend we are going to Sparta to visit Brandon's grandparents. I plan to use that time to TRY and get some peace while away from home. I'm going to take a good book with me and enjoy their beautiful patio.
3) We are planning a vacation in September to the beach. Probably Panama City, and I could not be more excited! I cannot WAIT. I look forward to spending time each morning on the oceanfront balcony with a cup of coffee and the Word of God, just taking in that beauty. Something about the ocean just makes me remember how great and powerful God really is.
4) the "every day." I am going to try and start scheduling one day a week where my Facebooking/tv watching/ texting is minimal. I'll use that evening to sit outside, go for a walk, read the Word, pray, and focus on my heart.
If you're like me, then I challenge you to do the same. Cut out some TV and computer time, and spend some time with God. :-)